What is Christmas all about?

I finally received my first card! I'm done for parcel. It was exciting the first few times, especially when it was least expected. Then it stopped. I was excited when I got my first card, its in a letter, and the writing of my name on the envelope was so familiar! It says my name and it doesn't has my Uni's logo stamped anywhere on it, so definitely, it's a social card! But when I got it, I was rushing to class so I left it on the table outside. Don't you just enjoy letters and cards (like me)? It shifts the advance world back into time where horse carriage was the only transport.

I forgotten about the card till my sister dashed through my room door later on at night,  reading the card. I told her it was my card and she said it was her's too as it has her name on it. I went to the dustbin to get the envelope that she threw (after she tore it open) and it only has my name. I told her that, then she flipped the card open and said "There, my name's inside"

(sorry about the mirrored image)

I believe December is the festive month of Christmas and it should stay in the month of December. Over here and I'm sure every other country that celebrates christmas, the day right after halloween (some even on halloween night) started the Christmas decorations and Christmas sales! Christmas sales, not winter sales, note. Been watching lots of christmas movies lately like Christmas in Wonderland, Christmas Town & etc. With the new transition, the movies are highly required to feel the spirit.

Mom, you have always wanted me to go home early when I'm out with my friends. 

sometimes you even tried not letting me out. Is it too late for me to come home now?

How to camwhore in the library

After meeting up with the group, I was left an hour to kill till the group activity at 3pm which I thought was compulsory. I ran back to school to find that it wasn't compulsory and it was needless for me to attend if I do not have any question about my project. In amidst of cursing and swearing, I suddenly recalled my dearest love who told me to meet up in the library. So I ran towards the other direction just to be in the library.

Truth is, there's nothing in the library for me to do. I just wanna be there because they told me to. There's no exam for me, no books for me to read, only pictures to look at maybe. I sat down at a table, tried looking smart by flipping my organizer. My forehead form some frown lines to put up with the act, but it didn't last long. My brain was completely blank as I look solemnly over the book. The acting was definitely more tiring than running under the rain. But as promised, the trust game needs pictures for evidence.

So I... pretend to look busy looking for books on the shelf in an empty aisle. It was hard to find an unoccupied one without someone stepping in every 3 minutes. I was shy obviously. I was afraid the librarians would assume I was stealing as I was looking suspicious. But I managed to snap a shot. This is not the best picture of me but this is the only one that proves my presence in the library.

I wonder if Japan and KL went to the library as we said we would. I bloody ran under the rain for this, they would be laughing their ass off right now if they trick me to it! What would it be? A blessing or a curse that I have a weakness for certain people and that, I am a completely different person around them. Vulnerably weak.

I'm a busy bee this week.

I cannot not be busy though I really want to

so I'm gonna have fun being busy!

Boys lie

Jumping makes things look different. Try.

Physically speaking, I can't jump. I'm not kidding, the highest I could jump is the height of a coke can. I realized that mid 2008. How lame, 18 years of my life and I didn't know I couldn't jump any higher than that. That is without any help of bouncy sofas and beds with springs.

Forget it, I have no idea why I typed that down.

Boys lie and I don't know why. I lie, everyone lies. It'll be very non human of you to not lie. We can avoid lying by having the adaptability to accept harsh critics, yes, something I dislike. I'd rather eat onion all day than to be rejected. That's the pride talking by the way. So what made the post title today? Do people lie just to impress a person or is it the fear of losing someone?

Maybe it's both.

But what if the person was never yours to lose? Then I'm sure he's just a pathetic guy who thinks you're more pathetic than he is to not find his skeletons. Right? Right. I'm talking to myself, I enjoy this mental ping pong with myself. Maybe I didn't make it clear that I am fine with anything they have to say, I keep a very open mind about everything and I am usually not opinionated. Maybe being discreet on every first meeting does gives out the idea of me taking mental notes.

But that's quite unlikely to be true. They're not all new people, I'm talking about new friends and also guys that I've known for quite awhile (like years) I don't like confronting people, or make them admit their lies; On the contrary, I enjoy seeing them talk and brag as if no one would ever find out. I like playing along, it makes me laugh. This is where my friends draw the line, they've always wanted me find someone man enough to own up to his words and actions or at least confront him. But with my curiosity, it is rather hard for me to stop when I should. I'm always dying to know what is his next draw. I've been on the other side of the road definitely, it was ugly, I like it better over on this side. I live once, and I never wanna make another mistake like that again.

Things have been different here. & I like it so far. But someone crossed the line tonight. Having me to shock someone about what they have been concealing so long is like making a swinger go monogamy. Just so you know, I know.

If I am a psychiatrist,

I wouldn't charge any patient a single penny until they start talking and learn to share or

at least the hints of improvement appear.

24 hours isn't enough

when I'm sleeping or when I'm slacking. I wish time would stop for me and I wouldn't need to bath or finish my work, or reply emails. pfft*

Anyways, I've decided to organize my messy life.

And the first step is to categorize my blog,

HENCE, I will be having more than a blog, and each of them particularly focuses on a subject. I'm trying to multitask on a higher level rather than being stuck at "walk and talk"

People grow up, I'm growing up on my own terms :)

No sleep till I'm done.

Despite my 'fantabulous' day in school today, reality has finally set it and it stinks like cow poo. I am really hating Martin and Candide, I was stuck with them the entire day, had no idea what in God's world were they about. Stupid weird ass characters. The aliens shouldn't have dropped the philosopher Candide back to earth, now I gotta study that weird ass fella, worse is to reanimate him! Thank God this guy came up with some great ass idea to just do whiteboard animation.

Urrm..

Guess the paragraph above doesn't make much sense to you. Martin and Candide, the characters we're suppose to study and reform the context in the most creative way. But the context is written in the olddest english even most people in class don't understand, what more of me?! Stupid Martin and Candide. Anyways, let me blog about my happy moments before heading back to simplifying the damn ass text.

Nothing in particular happened though. I was just very happy, and as usual, I had my thursday company :) I was smiling away like an unleashed derange girl under the full bellied clouds, the tenebrous weather wasn't affecting me. Weird.

Oh btw, I think I have great lecturers :)

Brunner in Birmingham

They say an apple a day keeps the doctor away but I fell ill not too long ago. Too much of something is bad enough.

Stop it, get out and away, please.

I woke up around noon. My sister woke me up, my cousin woke me up too. Wonder why do people keep waking me up for no apparent reason. My sister told me we were gonna go out in half an hour's time and I'm supposed to get dress. We had no idea where were we going yet. Took more than an hour to clean up and change. They decided to go Birmingham just for lunch. We left home around 3 I think, and due to an expected circumstances, we got lost and took more than an hour to reach. We were circling Bullring because we couldn't find the right path into the parking lots though it is directly in front of us.

We only managed to walk around half of the mall because we have not eaten and Bullring closes at 8pm. Borders is closing down, so they have this clearance sales but I wasn't too keen of going in (I don't read much, or at all) then I remembered bookstores have nice notepads and self-help books! Yes, I am particularly interested in self help books. Oh, they also sell items like candles and coasters and stuff, i need them because i want them and when you get what you want, you feel really happy and euphoria is a top priority feeling. ha! Make sense right? Right.

So anyways, I was loitering aimlessly, being attracted by nothing and complete boredom but the rush of the crowd searching for every item on their shop list in the sales section pumped me up! I don't know why but I began looking through the book racks earnestly! After snapping out from the influence, I went on looking for cute calenders, named chocolates, splash coasters and bullet ice trays. I didn't buy them. I wanted to buy something (or anything), what's happening to me? I held on to the Foo Fighter's on sale album for awhile before putting them back on the shelf. For 13597461 seconds, I wanted to buy it. I needed to buy something actually, not exactly Foo Fighter's album. I don't even listen to Foo Fighter's song for goodness sake!

Thank God we left before I bought a cookery book (it looks really colorful though). So anyways, we walked to China Town for dim sum. Golden Palace was the original plan, we stick to it still. But they didn't have anymore dim sum, good for me eh? I don't take dim sum, unless you consider egg tarts as dim sum, then yeah, I'm all about 'dim sum'. There were only some left, and they charged us £2 for 5 assorted chinese dumplings.

This is some char siew thingy my sister recommended which my tongue find it quite distasteful.

We are sisters, but we are very different in most aspects. And these are the dishes we had for brunner (Breakfast, lunch & dinner) Some tofu beef dish, I super like! Well, it was like the only thing I ate. haha! Our soup, which had tofu too. Me like :) I think that's a complimentary dish because we didn't order it.

EV's beef is on the left and on the right would be Clement's chicken. They're both not my kind of food so i had very little of both, barely a bite.

This is the spicy deep fried pig intestine we had similar to the one in Han Dynasty on Halloween. The one in Han Dynasty was nice, i didn't like this because it had a strong smell of Pedegree dog food. No I do not eat dog food, I used to watch my dad prepare my dog's meal so I know how it smells like. lol! Clement finished this too!

We wanted to walk around Selfridges but it was too late already. My soon to be 23 years old sister still have not changed her habit on drinking carbonated drinks. It's not good, but she drinks them anyways. There was something wrong with the vending machine, it took us awhile to get the Pepsi.

And here's something for you to laugh at :)

I still think their babies are gonna be 'cute'.

Happy Family?

They're like my parents anyways, cooler in every way, younger too! Clement's trying to look fat, he's alot slimmer than he looks in those two pictures. I had fun today. There was so much that I wanted to buy. There were the coin boxes that I wanted to get, they're called savesaurus, its a dinosaur coin box. I wanted to buy at least 5 of it and it's £3.99 for one but my sister was nowhere to be seen, so I didn't buy it. No sister = No money :/ It's because it's a name labelled coin box like Annaplidox or something I can't really remember.

Stay out of my dream.